Why I fail to wake up at 4.30am
Plastic Love by Takeuchi Mariya was blaring at 5.50 am.
I let my hand ran over the side of the bed, attempting to silence my handphone. I thought I left it at this side of the mattress.
I hissed with irritation as I desperately tried to feel for the opposite side of the bed. The alarm is getting louder. If I don’t find it in time, I knew that the the song will reach a crescendo of misery — the shrilly chorus. I grumbled and forced myself to wake up. My phone was under the pillow, buzzing away.
Waking up and staring into nothingness, I swore that I sat there for like 5 minutes.
Great, I missed it.
I promised myself to wake up at 4.30 am, where I got the inspiration to follow Jocko Willink, a retired US Navy SEAL, whom I stumbled on Instagram.
This guy is a beast. He can do it, easily.
A life towards discipline.
A test of willpower.
A jump start for the day.
In theory, you get more work done in the morning as your energy is at its peak and motivation is high, especially when you know that others are still in bed.
You‘re more likely to improve the odds of success for the day.
Right.
But you know, of course I screwed up on the first day. So, here’s what I did that resulted in my pathetic attempt towards self-improvement.
I slept late last night (duh)
The reason why I wake up later. Sleeping earlier than my scheduled time is like forgoing my personal time to concentrate for tomorrow’s work. I suppose I see it like eating out a chunk of my ‘me time’.
I can’t live without my phone
To say that I cannot live without my digital companion would be an understatement — It would literally cause chaos into my life. What am I going to do without my alarm clock and the cheesy motivational videos subscriptions on YouTube that I religiously binge before dozing off? Am I going to stare at the ceiling and entertain my worries at night?
I was reluctant to wake up early
Yes, that’s the truth, straight up. I wasn’t fully invested on it.What’s not to sacrifice than a great sleep at your plushy mattress? Some may argue that a good rest is as essential for improving one’s productivity than to push yourself everyday to exhaustion.
Conclusion
I regret to say that I am destined to fail right from the start. Serves me right for my half-assed behaviour.
As someone who prefers balance, 4.30 am is a bit too extreme. I’ll tune it to 5.00 am instead.
I shall try again, next week and see how it goes.
thank you for reading!
