My father passed away at the age of 66. He was a very reserved and quiet gentleman. Assuming that I passed on at the same age as my dad, I would be at the halfway mark of my life.
From young, I was never a very clever student in school nor was I great at sports. Everything I did was average at best. Fair grades for exams and selected in the sports meet, just to make up for the numbers.
When you’re 33 and death decides to visit and say hello to your family, it seems like someone up there is showing a sign, reminding me to get my act together.
Death. So taboo to speak of, yet so fundamental in our lives.
It is probably the best invention of life and a very powerful motivator for change.
And that is how I found the courage to change after months of grieving and reflection before I embark towards a journey of self-reliance. I have always dreamed about supporting my own self independently and finding work that can allow me to give back to others.
Here is an Instagram post by Jay Shetty, prompting me to write a list of my potential regrets once I reached my expiry date.
List of the 10 things I may regret before I conked off for a deep slumber (in no particular order).
- I wished that I had started on my own business or trade.
- I should have spent more time with my parents when I had the chance.
- The lady I spend time with, I wished that I had married her.
- I wished that I would live a much purposeful life.
- I wished that I could express myself freely.
- I should have spent more time working on my health.
- I should have set myself as an example for the future generation.
- The people who left before me, I should have asked for their forgiveness and swallow my pride.
- I should have gone for my Hajj pilgrimage (A Muslim obligation) when I had the strength back in my younger days.
- I should have prepared for my parting and not be a burden to others.
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